Saturday, May 1, 2010

Didn't I tell you?

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Don't you remember that one night when you cried so hard, you felt like your heart was cracking into pieces and all you could do was hold your pillow closer and sob? Or that one day when you finally decided after so many months of thinking about it. How it was so hard to walk away but you had finally made up your mind and you were finally going to follow your heart but no one told you it would be so painful. And it hurt. It hurt so badly. And it felt like you let the world reach in and rip your heart out and left you on the floor dying. You curled into your broken heart and held on to hope with your broken fingers.

Don't you remember how you woke up the next morning with a stuffy nose and a puffy face? How you were surprised to find your heart still beating, to find that you were still alive?
I knew we'd make it through this.
Didn't I tell you May flowers were waiting?

11 comments:

  1. even when we think it has stopped, the world is always waiting for us

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  2. I was so surprised to find last weekend, that you can sob at night and sleep, and when you wake up...your face really will still be puffy. I had read it in a novel just that day and didn't believe it.

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  3. You summed up how I'm feeling right now. You summed up my relationship with some people.

    Perfect words. I love love those photos.

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  4. yes, holding a broken heart with broken fingers...through the
    longest night in forever...and then May...life & renewal.

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  5. This is a great post, the words and the pictures together make the perfect poetic juxtaposition.

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  6. I always love your words for they are so much honest emotion being involved...

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  7. Such pretty pictures. I walked away ten months ago and it still hurts - even tho it was my choice and I have a new relationship with a man who knows how to love me. But it doesn't stop the sense of failure after three decades, despite the fact that I tried everything I could to keep it together.

    It would have been our 23rd wedding anniversary today. I remember the May flowers on that sunny day and I look at them now as a new beginning.

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  8. yes to holding on to hope with broken fingers. yes.

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  9. The photos are gorgeous. And I love the passage.

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  10. I remember, I remember the feeling that cry so hard and only thing can do is to hold a pillow closer and sob, like all the hopes in the world are dead. And I also know after all the sad feelings got out from crying, a brand new world with hopes are waiting for us. "I knew we'd make it through this." This post means so much to me. Your words are so powerful , so true and truly touched me, like always.

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